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Fear Of Putting Myself Out There As A Writer.
Submitted by: A W Lindahl
Malvern WorcestershireI am a song writer and have a 5 piece band called Hennesea in which I sing, play guitar, and harmonica.
I am a musician and songwriter in a band called Hennesea. I have a book out called “Singing For Supper’, A Busker’s Tale” by A W Lindahl. It is a memoir from my early formative years. I decided to start writing it in January after reading a book by Mary Gauthier called “Saved By A Song” that I stumbled upon whilst on a trip to Nashville.
After the decision to self-publish my book in August of this year, I had what I would call a mini breakdown. I could not sleep or eat and I was filled with anxiety and fear. I was becoming quite unwell and I even considered canceling the publication. Forcing myself to run 3 miles a day helped for a while, but my mind would then take over. I was mentally tormenting myself with hateful words and thoughts as to why anyone would want to read my book, as well as what people would think of me if they did read it.
I was a mess until I stumbled across the podcasts and books by Steven Pressfield, Elizabeth Gilbert, Wayne Dyer, and Rhonda Byrne, not forgetting the wonderful David Bingham. Subsequently, I have rewired my thoughts through the reading of these books along with doing meditation and I literally feel like a different person. In a relatively short period of time, I opened my mind up to everything I could find spiritually and scientifically and have now come to the realization that I was most definitely meant to write that book to come to the place where I am now.
On the 17th of November, I had what I think was an awakening! Some kind of chemical thing happened in my brain, and I felt quite euphoric and blissful. I found myself laughing and talking to some force out there saying “Why now when I needed this years ago?!”
I have never been religious but thought of myself as an open minded and possibly a spiritual person, but I really was not. Now I feel that I have discovered that incredible thing that people talk about and that Rhonda Byrne has explained to be ‘Awareness’. It is really so simple! I even remember having experienced it as a child in a school assembly and trying to talk to my mother about it when I came home. Anyway, I have recommended The Greatest Secret to so many people now. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I am in such a better place within myself and I am now completely at peace.
This Saturday I will be doing a concert and holding my book launch at the same time feeling proud and hopefully, completely fearless. I wanted to share this with you as you, along with the others I spoke of, have been a big part of this whole process. I really look forward to where my new outlook on life is going to take me. Thank you so very much, Rhonda.
With lots of gratitude and love,
Anna