I had struggled with the pain of disease so much that I wanted to kill myself. I asked my parents to just let go of me and to let me be. This was probably the worst day of my life. They also started to cry and it was a hopeless situation. I felt let down by my body. The physical pain was so bad that I was wondering why was I even born.

That very day I signed up for surgery, and that would be my second one. The first surgery did not heal me 100%. It just gave me some years in between pain but I was never completely normal. I lost most of my friends and relationships. When you are sick your life takes a back seat to everything else and having pain and being sick becomes your day.

This time during the second surgery, I cried and cried before I started to pray to Lord Shiva. I kept chanting his name and I had also previously read all articles and the blog on The Secret website. On the surgery table, I prayed for the equipment and the nurses to heal me. I thanked them for everything,  including the incision blades that would be used to cut me, the doctor who was adding sedatives to my IV, and he was the last person that I gave thanks for. I was thankful for every pill and every single injection they gave me.

Six months after the surgery, I started yoga. I visualized my body healing with every asana. I meditated and also visualized that Maa Parvati was hugging me in her lap and letting me heal. Sometimes I cried, sometimes I felt loved, but I just kept at it. I also tried to forgive myself for all the hurt I brought to my body. I kept on journaling about my gratitude even in the worse of days, I wrote that I was thankful that I had a bed to cry on.  I made a point to be consistent and not think of the results. I was very lucky to find a yoga therapist very close to my place.

I can tell you now that my body is normal after many years. So if you are struggling, just hang in there and have faith. Magic happens! Just have full faith. Now I am never leaving forgetting these habits. Thank you, Universe. Love you!